Depression, Diet and (bitter) Dreams

I have damned depression: clinical, profound, tiring depression. A frank realisation that life is bleak and meaningless, that there is no point in it. Jus' livin' for teh sake of it. *Bleh*

Every single aspect of my life is affected: I have no IRL friends. My sleeping, drinking, social and eating behaviour is screwed in a horrendous disgusting fashion. I urinated six 6 times last night and I took 3 hours for sleep onset. I am *constantly* thirsty and feel like bingeing on dairy and sugar all the time.

This brings me onto something else: I eat excessive amounts of protein. WAY TOO MUCH. It's bottoming out my shit and likely exacerbating my depression because of the insulin hypersecretion brought on by too much dairy protein especially. The excessive tiredness is otherwise inexplicable other than to say that I have depression, but as a young scientist I think that label is redundant.

Everything has a mechanism, a biological explanation.

Excess protein is likely a negative thing. I eat maybe 300 grams or more per day, of which 175g may be dairy protein. This is ridiculous; I am not afraid to say that I have a dairy addiction. There are several opiate-like chemicals in dairy protein including casomorphin and lactorphin. These happen to survive digestion via whey protein's unique DDP-4 inhibiting properties so that they can bind to endorphin receptors in the brain. Temporary relief from depression, yes, but chronic worsening of my Asperger's Syndrome and general dysphoria is shit enough for me to say that I WANT TO QUIT IT, stat.
I reckon that I should be eating 150g protein, maybe 200g max. The last time I weighed myself I was 100 pounds and I stand at 156cm tall at the moment so I really don't need all that much, even if I am still growing taller. I should also note that it makes up a very high percentage of my total calories which is concerning because my insulin per unit glucose will be too high, thus producing hypoglycaemia and hypercortisolaemia. I should ideally be eating more carbohydrate and probably exercising less too.

The Plan:
>Reduce total protein to 150g-200g per day
>Increase carbohydrate to 200g per day
>Increase fat to 50g per day

The thing is I don't measure stuff out, or at least accurately, so these are ballpark figures rather than exact sciences. Bare in mind that this is a starting pt to see where this takes my mood irl.

Exercise is difficult when depressed but it results in an amelioration of my mood so it is worth it. It also kills some time, as well as improves my aesthetics slightly (I am really ugly). I will modify my exercise to 30 minutes of walking, 4k running, and 10 max sprints, plus whatever else. I may take a complete day of rest every 3 days if needs be (only walking and NEAT  + may lower carb intake).

Finally I will cut out most fromage blanc and limit it to 100g per day in lieu of 1.85kg which is bloatingly high. I will eat lots of meat still, and drink 1 litre of milk for growth purposes. Chao.